Mathematics

I smoked
One
Two
Three cigarettes
Trying to forget
The last words spoken

I cried
Four
Five
Six times
Trying to purge
Regret from my body

I replayed what I did in
Seven
Eight
Nine ways
Trying to justify
My impulsive actions

I gave you
Ten words
Ten stares
Ten suggestions as to my contrition
Trying to get a reaction

But I didn't even get a fraction
Of your forgiveness